Constant Through Live's Inconsistencies

I feel like way too often I am having those "What-am-I-doing-here-I-just-want-to-go-home" moments. I think it is in those times when my emotions are pulled in several directions, when I feel like I am missing out on life back home, and when I just miss what is all too familiar. 

Why do those moments come? Will they ever leave? How do I even handle them?

The littlest things can spark an emotion or cause me to miss my people. It doesn't have to be a big deal or anything dramatic for me  to question what I am doing. It just happens. Something will be going on at home that I wish I was a part of... People will be venturing into new things and I don't like being so disconnected. So I miss home. Then I question if I miss it so much then why am I not there? Why am I not in a comfortable place? Or the place I love most? Because that is not where God has called me. Then I am better. Then I cry and have to convince myself that I am in the right place. Okay, there is a temporary fix. Like I said, though, these moments are constant. That crying, letting it all out, then remembering this is where God has called me to does not change the emotions that come.

Maybe if I understood a little more why those emotions came then I would be able to handle them a little better. I am constantly seeking the presence and will of God. He has continually brought me peace and comfort in this season. He has provided me with more friendships than I could imagine and walked with me through each step of the journey. So why do I constantly question my place here and feel so unsatisfied?

Tonight as I rested in God's love He reminded me of comfort that can only come from Him. He reminded me that I will never be fully satisfied in just friendships and fun. My satisfaction has to come from Him. Life is so inconsistent. Seasons come and go and if I am trying to find satisfaction in fleeting things then I will be continually seeking peace from a source that cannot bring that. He pours out so many blessings on me through friendships but that is not where my satisfaction comes. He alone can give that and in that I am satisfied. He is ALL that I need. No longer do I have to settle with a temporary fix that I can provide to these moments but now a change in perspective of what I have needed all along. 

He is consistent even when seasons of lives make everything seem so inconsistent and that is more than enough for me to be satisfied.