It started out great. All the little things were going right... My bed was actually made (since college that has been one of the things I neglect), I had taken time to look nice, and I was early to class.
It was awesome.
Just a few minutes after 8, when class was starting, my nose started bleeding. Great. So I rushed to the bathroom, stopped my nose bleed, and as quietly and gracefully as possible returned to my seat. I survived zoology as my professor sped through his lecture and I tried to retain the words that wanted to just fly over my head.
Next was Bible Survey. I should have studied before this class... nope didn't have time for that. Its not all that bad though and I seriously am thankful that I had that "break" because guess what's next...
Chemistry. I can promise you he was speaking another language. Today I seriously walked out of that class questioning my major. At that point I was overwhelmed with all of the information I had tried to retain and couldn't think straight. But alas I still had two more classes.
At 11 am I was walking into my fourth class of the day. It's just contemporary world; pretty much history but a lot of information. I was so overwhelmed at this point I wanted to cry. My mom had been sending me encouraging texts. That always helps me get through the day. But my dad and brother were also sending me texts and praying for me. I couldn't read them in class because when I tried, I started crying. Um... really?
I really was okay. I just miss them.
Lunch time. *sigh of relief* I grabbed an express meal stuck it in a paper sack and walked down the steps of the caf to head back to my room to take advantage of the hour I had until my 1 o'clock lab. All of my food fell out the bottom of the bag. At this point I was starting to feel like I was in a movie. These things only happen to the new kids on the first day of school... right? Obviously I was wrong. I quickly stuffed my lunch into my backpack and proceeded to my room.
Finally, I could take a deep breath. You would think the day would just all in all be a bad day after that but actually it wasn't! It actually got better.
1 pm lab comes. Our experiment had grown a plaque! (This probably means nothing to you). This was excellent though. And it gets better... Our lab is usually over at 4... we were done at 2!!!
I could've done a victory dance in the lab room. Instead I quickly made it back to my room and completed two hours of zoology. Not exactly fun but relieving. I completed all of my chemistry lab homework too. Double relieving.
Afte a nice dinner with Sarah and Ellen, I was determined to finish more homework. I studied more chemistry for about an hour then proceeded to complete an assignment. Well, the internet was being as slow as Christmas and a 20 minute assignment turned into almost two hours. That definitely was not the highlight of my day either. In the midst of this though I talked to Rachel for a bit. Phone calls from "home" or family make days like today a lot better.
I was ready to turn on a movie and relax when I just broke down. I missed home. I missed my family. I missed my friends. I miss what is so normal to me. I really miss this all of the time but normally I can continue while missing so much because I know I am right where I need to be. Tonight I just couldn't do it. I cried as I read messages from my family and dear friend, Bethany. Just talking to them helped. After I had released a bit of emotion, Emily walked into my room. She listened to me talk about how much I miss everyone then encouraged me and really just gave me what I needed to go on.
Now I am turning on that movie, eating peanut butter M&Ms, and not thinking about any of my classes. It's what tonight needs.
There is always something you can learn from days like today though. Every time I felt like I was at the end of my strength I could tell God was carrying me through. When I thought I couldn't do it anymore He provided a way out. He gave me a break, a chance to rest.
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