To Know and To Be Known

This morning I was thinking and praying and praying and thinking. Aware of the happenings all around me right now and the calling I feel so strongly on my life I can't help but be a little overwhelmed. Overwhelmed because I want to be obedient. I want to listen and respond. I want to fulfill that calling. All of those desires can become a burden. I try to figure it out and how I can make it happen on my own. 

I had been convicted by that. I was losing the purpose. The things and the stuff and the doing became more important than the being. In my conviction I knew my eyes and heart needed a shift. I needed to focus on the One who calls me rather than the calling itself. The more my life becomes about the calling and not my Creator, the more I will lose the purpose and passion. 

He has called me. He has given me promises. Above that, though, He gave me a clear and specific word as I walked into this season; he pointed me to a scripture that I was to live by. It says, "You shall hear a voice saying 'this is the way, walk in it.'" 

So I determined to only move at the sound of His voice. When He says move, I will move. And I won't move until I hear His voice. 

As I have walked that out the past few months He has taken me in and out of many experiences. It is not necessarily how I would have chosen to do it but I knew I was to be obedient. 

Now God has placed opportunities in my path. He has opened doors and allowed me to walk through them. They aren't paths that have every answer clearly laid out. They are adventures that require trust; that require me to remember that He is going to speak and make it clear to me what I am to do. He has promised a harvest. That is a BIG deal. I know the harvest is coming. I subconsciously try to make it come and think about what I can do to bring the harvest. I can't do anything though. I can only prepare. What He has promised, He will do.

Back to this morning... With those revelations from above I was thinking about how to walk that out. How to trust Him. How to "seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness" because in doing that "all these things" will be added to me. I know I don't have to worry about tomorrow. He holds my tomorrows. 

This morning in my heart I was reminded where my focus needs to move and where it needs to stay. When my gaze is set upon Him, everything else dims. The importance of it all fades because of who He is in my life. 

Then I heard this scripture... 

“Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. On that day many will say to me, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and cast out demons in your name, and do many mighty works in your name?’ And then will I declare to them, ‘I never knew you; depart from me, you workers of lawlessness.’" (Matthew 7:21-23)

I want to be known by Him. I don't want to be so consumed by the works that I miss Him. So I will choose to seek Him and not the doing. I want more of Him and His presence. I want Him to know me. He desires relationship and so do I. 

It is my desire to be so consumed with my Creator that the calling comes naturally.